dearest_blue

Welcome back, king.

Thank you to Linn for proofreading as always~

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Music/Lyrics: Eve
Arrangement: Numa, Eve
Chorus: Eve
Vocal: Rib
Movie: MONO-Devoid
Illustration: Yuribou
Mix: Kohei Nakaya

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jmc3g8bOo2M

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10年ちょっとの思い出　少年なら大人になって

Juunen chotto no omoide shounen nara onota ni natte

10 years of memories, if you were a young boy you’ve become an adult

好きなものなんて　変わり果ててしまったんだ

Suki na mono nante kawarihatete shimattanda

The things I’ve liked have also changed completely

ああしょうがない　才能あったって足りないって

Aa shouganai sainou atta tte tarinai tte

Ah, it can’t be helped, I had talent back then but it wasn’t enough

もどかしい心　嫌いだ

Modokashii kokoro kirai da

I hate this irritating heart of mine

懐かしいサリシ日々の思い出　心変わりじゃ満たされないね

Natsukashii sarishi hibi no omoide kokorogawari ja mitasarenai ne

Memories of those nostalgic “Sarishi” days, they won’t be satisfied with faithlessness

新時代の幕だけ開いて　その席だけはずっと虚(から)になっているんだ

Shinjidai no maku dake hiraite sono seki dake wa zutto kara ni natte irunda

Open only the curtains of the new age, only that seat has become an empty shell

今も胸のどこかで帰りを待ってるわ

Ima mo mune no dokoka de kaeri wo matteru wa

Even now, somewhere deep inside my chest, I’m waiting for the return

夢をまた見させてくれるなら

Yume wo mata misasete kureru nara

If you would let me see my dream again

もう一度　その歌声を

Mou ichido sono utagoe wo

Just one more time, using that singing voice

この心臓　めがけて飛び込んでいってくれ

Kono shinzou megakete tobikonde ittekure

Aim at this heart, and dive right in

まだ覚めないまま

Mada samenai mama

I still won’t wake up

それでも貴方はふわりと消えて

Soredemo anata wa fuwari to kiete

And even so, you started to softly fade away

どこまでも行くと　きっと答えを待っても

Dokomade mo iku to kitto kotae wo mattemo

If you go to the ends of the earth, even if you wait for a certain answer

忘れてしまわぬようにと　ここを出よう

Wasurete shimawanu you ni to koko wo deyou

Let’s leave this place, so that we won’t forget

人の成りして歩んで来た

Hito no nari shite ayunde kita

It was by growing up that I arrived here

殴り書きした　文字は色褪せぬまま

Nagurikaki shita moji wa iro asenu mama

The colors of the scribbled letters still have not faded

おさがりの会話で着飾っては

Osagari no kaiwa de kikazatte wa

The leftover conversations were dressed up with

君の望む君になんてなれなかったわ

Kimi no nozomu kimi ni nante narenakatta wa

“You weren’t able to become the you you wished for”

泣いて　情けない姿を晒して

Naite nasakenai sugata wo sarashite

I cried and showed this pitiful appearance

立派な大人になんて

Rippa na otona ni nante

I’m sorry I wasn’t able to become

なれなくてごめんなさいね

Narenakute gomen nasai ne

“A worthy adult”

格好悪いね　待って

Kakkowarui ne matte

Pretty uncool, right? Wait a moment

神に見放されては

Kami ni mihanasarete wa

I’m praying today as well

今日も祈ってるわ

Kyou mo inotteru wa

To be abandoned by God

優しさの隣に君が居たからまた笑ってみせた

Yasashisa no tonari ni kimi ga ita kara mata waratte miseta

Because you were there kindly next to me, I was allowed to try laughing again

本当はただ　どうしようもない人生　抗えないまま

Hontou wa tada doushiyoumonai jinsei aragaenai mama

The truth is simply that, I still can’t oppose this life that can’t be helped

わかりあいたいのに傷つけあって　独りになるのなら

Wakariaitai no ni kizu tsuke atte hitori ni naru no nara

I wanted us to understand each other, but we hurt each other, and if we end up alone

ずっと黙って待っていよう

Zutto damatte matte iyou

Let’s be silent and wait forever

せめて人らしく泣いていよう

Semete hitorashiku naite iyou

At the very least, let’s cry like humans together

からっぽなまま

Karappo na mama

While we’re still empty

貴方の眼差しに踵を返す

Anata no manazashi ni kibisu wo kaesu

I will look back to you

臆病者だけど　最低な日々すら僕は肯定したくて

Okubyoumono dakedo saitei na hibi sura boku wa koutei shitakute

I’m a coward, but I want to affirm even the lowest days

取り戻したいから

Torimodoshitai kara

I want to take them back